Sunday, September 28, 2008

Violent Dreams

I am deeply disturbed by a series of violent dreams that I've been having over the course of this past week. I'm not even sure what triggered them, and what they say about me, but I'm going out on a limb in blogging about my experience.

I'm not a violent person, and I would never consider acting out the violence in my dreams. It is completely out of character for me, which makes the dreams all the more upsetting.

In the dreams, my violent behavior is directed towards someone else. More specifically, I'm beating a man's head to a pulp. What's most disturbing about the whole ordeal, is the graphic nature of the violence in my dream. I can remember every gory detail, and yet there is neither blood, nor signs of a struggle. Mechanically, I pound in a man's face over and over again, until all that's left is mush.

I was scared even to mention these dreams to my husband, fearing some criticism or judgement. Not that he's insensitive; I guess I was just shifting my need to feel safe and guarded onto him. Blogging about it is a huge leap, because for the first time in a while I feel as though I'm letting my guard down a bit-which is scary.

I have this incredible sense that these dreams are symbolic, but I feel so ill equipped in trying to interpret their meanings. :(


Wendy said...

Dreams that seem so real are frightening because in the dream, you cannot tell yourself it's just a dream - it seems too real.

I have the most frightening and realistic dreams that when I wake up I have been known to call someone to see if they are okay. And of course, they are.

I happened to mention it in passing to my doctor, and he surprised me by saying, "Oh, I am not surprised. Two of the medicines you take are known to cause vivid dreaming." Nice to know, eh?

So if you are taking meds of any kind, even OTC, check to see what side effects they cause. It could be a chemical reaction. Just a thought.

Sweet Dreams.

Pot Liquor said...

Hi Wendy. Thank you for taking the time to leave some advise, and congratulations on your loss!

Sarah said...

Wow, Dionne. That IS disturbing. Do you recognize the man, and is it the same man in each dream?

My first (unprofessional) thought is that there's some anger suppressed ... or a strong need to protect? (a momma-bear instinct?)

I'll be praying ...

Pot Liquor said...

Sarah, I do recognize the man, which makes the dreams more disturbing. Thank you for your prayers. I just feel like the closer I draw to Christ in my spiritual walk, the more the Light reveals. It's kind of bitter sweet. :( :(


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